Sara Bareilles “Gravity”

From the lyrics, i got that the man she was with exploited her fragility and made her feel worthless but dependant in a false security, somewhat of a narcissistic relationship. She loved him which kept her in that place, collapsed by his controlling weight and the love she had for him that refused to climb out in the fear of feeling alone, perhaps stripped bare, confused and lost to set herself free from the confinement she knew she was in. Set me free is basically saying let me go, i love you but i know you love me for the wrong reasons, and as heartbreaking as it is, i have to let you go to get out of my life, because this kind of love is killing her, not freeing her! And everytime she strips herself bare for herself to stand tall, he sees through the act and knows that she’s a fallen broken girl who needs him, who will be a friend when it suits him and the foe when it suits him, for both bring her into the dependancy on his control and her need to have that control for she has very little. She loves him looking up, as he feigns love looking down. And she is not allowed to rise up unless he wants her to, for then the fall back down is greater leading to her having lesser ability and strength to live without him for she believes he is her rock, and believes he is her everything. It’s a story of abuse, manipulation, dependancy and exploitation for control, in a very sad place where she genuinely loves him but through an impenetrable divide that she will never feel her love being mutally accepted. And even after they have separated, she is still controlled by him and holds a void because of the non-acceptance that she could love a man that much who could cause her that much pain. 

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